i'm drifting farther away and reaching further inwards.
there is an end or at least a solution which is and has started going into effect.
i just don't know how many more minutes of hours of days of weeks i can handle all of it.
it doesn't help when i am aware of the fact that i am consistently belittled in a passively manipulative way by someone with whom i care. it also doesn't help on the days when i am flat out ignored, steamrolled, bulldozed.
i'm struggling. it hurts.